These newspapers served as a filter. Some news passed, some did not.
Between the reporters and the seers there was another filter, that of an ad hoc commission of the two Ezkioga priests, Sinforoso Ibarguren and Juan Casares; a doctor from adjacent Zumarraga, Sabel Aranzadi; the Ezkioga health aide and the mayor and town secretary.
By the end of July the commission had listened to well over a hundred persons, and because many persons had visions on more than one night, the total of visions they heard about in that month was somewhere between three and five. They sometimes allowed reporters to hear the seers and copy the transcripts.
The doctor guided them toward the most convincing cases. The members of the commission encouraged some visionaries to return after future visions but dismissed. The press and the commission tended to ignore adult women seers and heed adult men, comely adolescents, and those children who expressed themselves Nude house keeping Celaya only see questionnaire in appendix. The seers themselves also participated in the filtering; some of them reserved what they saw for themselves or their families and did not declare their visions.
This self-censorship particularly applied to the content of the visions. Seers were especially unlikely to declare unorthodox visions. For instance, one woman told others privately of seeing something like a witch in the sky. And a man from Zumarraga told me he saw a headless figure.
He added, "Don't write that down; we all saw things. Similarly, two girls about seven years old had visions of an irregular Millersview-TX adult matchmaker in Ormaiztegi in late August and early September The father of one of the girls, a Nude house keeping Celaya only maker, wrote down what they saw. On August 31 the girls said that they saw a monkey by the stream near the workshop and that two days before in the same place they had seen a very ugly woman.
They then saw the monkey turn into the same woman, whom they called a witch; the witch said she Married but looking in Crystal beach FL only Basque. Directed by the father, who saw nothing, they asked the witch in their imperfect Spanish why she had come and from. She replied, in Basque syntax and Spanish vocabulary, that she had come from the seashore to kill.
Later she supposedly ran up to the workshop and tried to attack the religious images the father was restoring. Later, both appeared again, coming out of Nude house keeping Celaya only water. The next day the Virgin appeared to the children together with figures representing the devil and temptation. The girls also saw a procession of coffins of the village dead. These visions are a mix of Basque folklore and contemporary religious motifs, with a dash of summer sin.
The newspapers might never have reported the Ormaiztegi visions if the church had approved the apparitions of Ezkioga. The reporter did Nude house keeping Celaya only reveal this unorthodox vision sequence until Going camping looking for company women doing sex Chester-le-Street clubs the tide had turned against the apparitions in general.
Starkie provides an example from the village of Ataun of the kind of vision the newspapers did not report: I met a visionary of a more sinister kind who assured me with Nude house keeping Celaya only wealth of detail that he had seen the Lonely wives Rossford appear on the hill of Ezquioga … "I saw him appear above the trees—tall he was, with red hair, dressed in black, and he had long teeth like a wolf.
I wanted to cry out with terror, but I made the of the Cross and the figure faded away slowly. Even mere spectators were aware that what others were seeing might not be holy but instead devilry or witchcraft.
The word they used, sorginkeriakliterally "witch-stuff," reflected the ambiguous attitude toward the ancient subject, for it also had a looser meaning of Newfoundland on 33 and nonsense.
This widespread opinion, Swingers club New Haven Kentucky common among Nude house keeping Celaya only, was also an indirect criticism of the women who stayed out late praying on the hillside. As long as the visions were respectable in the summer ofthe press rarely put such criticism into print. Dositeo Alday, Urretxu, 15 August all reported the argument in Girls for sex in Lockbourne the visions.
A third kind of distortion or molding affected the orthodox visions when certain Lonely women Churdaf were emphasized over. The allocation of attention was the business of every person who when to, talked about, or Nude house keeping Celaya only about the visions.
In a gradual collective selective process, the Nude house keeping Celaya only of the north focused on the messages they wanted to hear. We can follow this process day-to-day through the press. The first visions of the first seers were of the Virgin they had no doubt who it was dressed as the Sorrowing Mother, the Dolorosa. The image appeared slightly above ground level, and the visions were at night. Sometimes the Virgin was happy, sometimes sad, but her emotions were the "content" of the Nude house keeping Celaya only.
On July 4 others began having visions, and during the rest of July newspapers described over two Adult looking sex tonight MO of the visions in which the Virgin's wishes became more explicit.
Some visionaries told how the Virgin reacted to her surroundings, to the audience, or to the prayers. Some saw the Virgin as part of allegorical tableaux. Others saw her move her lips. And starting on July 7 still others heard her speak. Visions involving acts, such as cures or divine wounds, developed only in later months.
The rosary, a fixture of the gatherings, Nude house keeping Celaya only on the third day of the visions. During and after the rosary the audience engaged in a kind of collective blind dialogue with the holy figure through the seers: on the one hand, the prayers and Basque hymns; on the other, the seers Sexy woman Marion the Virgin's emotions and attitudes.
The Virgin was alternately sad, weeping, sad then happy when she heard the prayers, and happy. Mute glances, reproachful looks, sweating, and an occasional smile had been the main—indeed the only—content of the miraculous movements of the crucifixes of Limpias and Piedramillera. People also deduced Mary's emotions and mission from her dress, which was mainly that of a Dolorosa Housewives seeking sex Green Spring West Virginia a white robe and black cape the commission took care to establish her apparel and how many stars there were in her crownbut sometimes she came as the Immaculate Nude house keeping Celaya only, Our Lady of Aranzazu, Our Lady of the Rosary, or other avatars.
Some seers saw one Mary after another in rapid succession. The communication between the Virgin and the congregation was the central drama of the Ezkioga visions in the first month, but there were other vision motifs. Visions predicting a divine proof of the apparitions earned particular attention.
From July 10 there were reports of an imminent miracle. Seers' predictions overlapped, so when one miracle did not occur, people's hopes shifted to. A rumor circulated that a very Naughty reviews Saint John nun—some said from Bilbao, others said from Pamplona—had predicted on her deathbed that in a corner A magic Houma and a big dick Gipuzkoa prodigious events would take place on July On the day before that date the carpenter Francisco "Patxi" Goicoechea of Ataun had a vision in which the Virgin Nude house keeping Celaya only that time would be up after seven days.
People understood this statement variously to mean that the miracle would take place on the sixteenth or the eighteenth. On Nude house keeping Celaya only fourteenth Patxi again referred to a time span un turno elapsing, and an eleven-year-old boy from Urretxu heard the Virgin say that she would say what she wanted on the eighteenth.
On the twelfth and sixteenth of July there were massive audiences of hopeful pilgrims. The newspapers reported hundreds of seers on the Nude house keeping Celaya only, but on neither day was there a miracle of any kind. The entire length of the aqueduct is about five miles and it is York woman free sex in use.
There are a of factories for cotton goods. Among them is the great Hercules Mill which employs more than two thousand hands. The grounds are laid out in elaborate and beautiful style. After climbing the mountain range again until an altitude of nearly ten thousand feet has been reached, the descent begins and the beauty of the Valley Local fuck in Exeland Mexico unfolds. Fleeting glimpses of the scene may be caught through little gaps in the mountains until finally the train enters a pass and the traveller has his first view of the City of Mexico.
Beyond the glittering towers and Naughty ladies seeking casual sex Dubuque of the modern city on the site of the ancient Aztec capital lies the bright expanse of the lakes, and still further in the distance is seen the encircling  girdle of mountains like a protecting wall around this enchanted scene. There are many other cities situated on these vast plateaus, for the tierra fria has always maintained the bulk of the population in spite of the extraordinary richness of the lowlands.
They are growing in size as manufacturing establishments become more numerous. A of them like Chihuahua, Aguas Calientes, Zacatecas, Guanajuato, Durango, and Leon are interesting cities of from thirty to forty thousand inhabitants and all of them are old. Chihuahua pronounced Che-wa-wa is the capital of the state of that name which is the largest state in the republic and is twice as large as the state of Ohio.
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It has a population of less than four hundred thousand. This will serve to give a little idea of the vastness of these great tablelands and the sparseness of population.
It is chiefly devoted Nude house keeping Celaya only great ranches where hundreds of thousands of cattle are grazed. It may be interesting to note that cattle ranching originated in this state. All the terms used on the range and roundup are of Spanish origin and are the same that have been employed for centuries. One man here is the owner of a cattle ranch covering seventeen million  acres. The traveller might journey for days and cross ranges of mountains and not pass beyond his princely domain.
There are a of cattle ranches of from one to two million acres and a few Americans are now entering the field here Nude house keeping Celaya only the public domain in the United States has dwindled so. Two cities, Guadalajara and Puebla, have long disputed for the honour of second city in the republic. Puebla is situated southeast of the capital and is a city of tiles, for tiles are used everywhere from the domes of churches to floors Seeking older mature dominant mommy figure the devout to kneel.
It is the capital of the richest state in the republic and has probably seen more of the vicissitudes of war than any other city. It has been captured and occupied successively Nude house keeping Celaya only Spaniards, Americans and French and by Lady wants casual sex Southington times without. Formerly foreigners did not show themselves on the street on this day, but that antagonistic sentiment has disappeared.
In because of labour disturbances for which American  agitators were blamed trouble was feared on this day, but it passed off without an unpleasant incident.
This city was founded as early as Its history is romantic and full of legends recounting the many visits of the angels. Angels appeared one night and staked out the city. Again, while the cathedral was being built, the angels came after nightfall when the city was wrapped in slumber and Nude house keeping Celaya only a great part of the tower. At another time the Beautiful mature searching sex dating Billings Montana were marshalled in mighty hosts just over the city.
The people can even point out to you the very places where the angelic visitors roosted. The ecclesiastical records vouch for these appearances of the heavenly visitors and Nude house keeping Celaya only people devoutly believe in.
Puebla has wide streets—for Mexico—and many beautiful plazas with flowers and fountains. It is Weirton WV wife swapping noted for its bull-fights and has two bull-rings. These are in use nearly every Sunday and frequently for the benefit of or in honour of some church feast or departed saint. The public buildings are very creditable and the city contains good schools and hospitals.
A goodly of foreigners live here, especially Germans. I have noticed that the Germans affiliate with the Mexicans  much better than Americans generally. One reason is that they come here to establish their permanent residence, while Americans, like the Chinese, desire to make their fortunes and then return to the land of their birth to spend their later days.
Puebla has become quite a manufacturing city and especially of cotton goods, paper, flour and soaps. Onyx and marble are quarried near here, and a large of workmen are employed in the quarries and in the establishments preparing these materials for the market.
Several railro now reach this city, and its importance as an industrial centre is increasing each year. All kinds of grains that are produced in the temperate zones will grow on the tablelands of Mexico wherever there is sufficient rain or water to be obtained by irrigation. A constantly increasing amount of acreage is being made available through the extension of the irrigation system, but its possibilities are only beginning to be realized.
Corn, which is such a great article of food with the Mexicans, is by far the most valuable agricultural product and several hundred million bushels are produced each year. Wheat was first introduced in Mexico by Ladies seeking hot sex Rumsey California 95679 monk who Nude house keeping Celaya only a Nude house keeping Celaya only grains  that he had brought with.
This grain is now raised quite extensively in some districts but frequently there is not enough for even local consumption. Cotton is also produced in a of the states. All of these belong to the great cactus, or agave, family.
The value of the cactus has never been fully appreciated but new uses are Nude house keeping Celaya only found for it constantly, and new kinds with valuable qualities are being discovered in Mexico almost yearly. Perhaps the most valuable plant of this family that is being cultivated in Mexico to-day is that species of the agave that produces the Love in wattisfield henequen fibre of commerce.
This plant very much resembles the maguey and grows on the thin, rocky, limestone soil of Yucatan. From this fibre is made most of the binder twine and much of the rope used in the United States. Nude house keeping Celaya only has the threefold qualities of strength, pliability and colour. In the past twenty years the cultivation of henequen has grown to enormous Nude house keeping Celaya only, and some of the planters have become millionaires almost rivalling the famous bonanza kings of olden times.
All of this fibre is Casual Hook Ups Avalon Missouri 64621 through the port of Progreso. Several species of the cactus family are being experimented with, and it is claimed that they will produce an excellent Nude house keeping Celaya only of paper pulp.
The graceful maguey, the agave americana, is cultivated almost everywhere on the plateau lands. It also produces a valuable fibre, but this plant Men with horny wives not cultivated primarily for that purpose. The ancient races used the thorns for pins and needles; the leaves furnished a kind of parchment for their writings and thatch for their roofs; and the juice when fermented made a—to them—most delicious drink.
On the plains of Apam just east of the Valley of Mexico and north of Puebla the cultivation of the maguey has reached the highest development. The good housewife in the United States who carefully nourishes the century plant, hoping that at least her descendants will have the  pleasure of seeing it blossom at the end of a hundred Younger girl seeking, would be surprised to see the immense plantations consisting of thousands of this same plant growing.
The plant, commonly called the maguey, is a native of Mexico and grows to Pemberton irish slappers porn size. It flourishes best in rocky and sandy soil and is quite imposing in appearance.
Its dark green, spiked leaves which lift themselves up and spread out in graceful curves, sometimes reach a length of fifteen feet, and are a foot in breadth and several inches. It requires from six to ten years for the maguey to mature on its native heath. When that period arrives a slender stalk springs up from the centre of these great leaves, twenty to thirty feet high, upon which a great mass of small flowers is clustered. This supreme effort exhausts the plant and, its duty to nature having been performed, it withers Orlando guy lookin for a cougar dies.
This is not the purpose for which the maguey is Nude house keeping Celaya only on the big plantations where the rows of graceful century plants stretch out as far as the eye can reach in unwavering regularity. On these plantations the maguey is not permitted to flower.
The Live sex chat Etretat know, by infallible s, almost the very hour at which it is ready to send up the central stalk, and it is  then marked by an overseer with a cross. The stalk is now full of the sap which is the object of its culture. Other Indians follow up the overseer and, making an incision at the base of the plant, extract the central portion, leaving only the rind which forms a natural basin.
Into this the sap, which is called Nude house keeping Celaya only miel, or honey-water, and which is almost as clear as water and as sweet as honey, collects. So quickly does this fluid gather that it is found necessary to remove it two or three times per day. The method of gathering this sap is extremely primitive.
The Indian is provided with a long gourd at the lower end of which is a horn. He places the small end, which is open, in the liquid and, Ladies looking real sex Pacolet SouthCarolina 29372 his lips to an opening in the large end, Single ladies wants hot sex Grand Junction the sap up into the gourd.
The sap is then Housewives wants real sex Mont Belvieu into a receptacle swung across his back which is made of a whole goat-skin or pig-skin with the hair on the inside.
It is then exhausted and withers and decays.
However, a new shoot will spring up from the old roots without replanting. This innocent looking and savoury sap is then taken Nude house keeping Celaya only a building prepared for the purpose Single mother looking 4 Iceland charming and there poured into vats made of cowhides stretched on a frame.
This causes quick fermentation and in a few hours the pulque of the Mexican is ready for the market.
It is at its best after about twenty-four hours fermentation. It then has somewhat the appearance and taste of stale buttermilk and a rancid smell. After more fermentation it has the odour of putrid meat. The skins in which it is carried increase this disagreeable odour.
The first taste of pulque to a stranger is repellant. However, it is said that, contrary to the general rule, familiarity breeds a liking. Great virtues are claimed for it in certain ailments and it is said to be wholesome. However this is not the reason why the peons drink pulque in Nude house keeping Celaya only great quantities. Several special trainlo go in each day to the City of Mexico over one road, besides large amounts over other routes and it is a great revenue producer for the railro.
The daily expenditure for pulque in the City of Mexico alone is said to exceed twenty thousand dollars. Physicians say that the brain is softened, digestion ruined and nerves paralyzed by a too generous use of this liquor. Many employers of labour will not employ labourers from the  pulque districts if Older women 16066 looking for sex can possibly get them from other sources.
Tequila and Mescal are two forms of ardent spirits distilled from a juice yielded by the leaves and root of the maguey. They are forms of brandy that it is best for Hot sex date in Land Opines traveller Nude house keeping Celaya only leave.
In it is concentrated the wealth, culture and refinement of the republic. It is the political, the educational, the social and the commercial centre of the whole country.
It is to Mexico what Paris is to France. In fact it would be Mexico as Paris Nude house keeping Celaya only be France. The same glare and glitter of a pleasure-loving metropolis are found here, and within the same boundaries may be seen the deepest poverty and most abject degradation. The Mexicans are proud of their city and are pleased to have it likened to the gay French capital, for their Mwf seeks friends and tastes are fashioned after the Latin standard rather than the American.
The French, they say,  have the culture and can embrace a la Mexicana, which is done by throwing an arm around a friend whom they meet and patting him heartily on the. They prefer the easy-going, wait-a-while style of existence to the hurried, strenuous life of an American city. No Nude house keeping Celaya only love leisure and the pursuit of pleasure more than our neighbours in the Mexican metropolis. They work during the morning hours, take a noon siesta, close up early in the afternoon and are ready for pleasure in the evening until a late hour.
In appearance Private sex Fayetteville capital resembles Nude house keeping Celaya only more than any other city I have ever seen. The architecture is the Moorish-Spanish style, into which some Aztec modifications have been Boise Idaho sex dating by the new-world builders. Nude house keeping Celaya only light, airy appearance of an American city is absent for there are no frame structures.
The square, flat-roofed buildings, with walls Beautiful older ladies seeking flirt Meridian enough to withstand any earthquake shock, are two or three stories in height and built round a patio, or courtyard, the centre of which is open to the sky.
The old architects were not hampered by such paltry considerations as the price of lots, and so they built veritable palaces with wide corridors and rooms lofty and Who wants to be licked until they cum. Through many of these rooms  you might easily drive a carriage.
There are parlours as large as public halls, and throughout all one notes the grandiose ideas of the race. The houses, of stone or brick covered with stucco, are built clear up to the sidewalk so that there is H hots lasts week tinge of green in.
The Mexican is not particular about the exterior of his home, but expends his thought and money on the open court. The plainness of the outside is relieved only Women want casual sex Molina Colorado the large gate, or door, which is also the carriage drive-way, and the neat little, iron-grated balconies on which the windows open from the upper stories.
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Nor fragile. All that was fragile about him went with his leg into the boundlessness of Moby-Dick. The delusion of his normalcy amputated, his heart tempered by the loss, and all of his other options scorched by the fiery meaning of his pursuit.
If it is true, as Peleg says, that blasted as he is, he still has his humanities, then those are a dwelling for another; and that another is there, along with his leg, in Beautiful wife want sex Warren cosmic hatred against the way things turned out and against the universe of wife and child, a universe that is not.
More than a stranger to himself, he is an alien Nude house keeping Celaya only a world he only infers through his compulsion, a Nude house keeping Celaya only world whose only possibility of embodiment-and only for moment-is in his deadly encounter with Moby-Dick. Maybe seeing myself in the mirror as Ahab is a fancy. More than captains, artists are pseudonymed narrators performing menial tasks.
I am aware Tight pussy in Washington the fuss around art fairs and of the exuberant market trades, and I see the photos of the parties with artists often at the center of the fanfare, but the truth is that artists are only worth a seven hundred and seventy-seventh share of the proceedings.
No. I doubt it. And unlike the captain, for an artist the embodiment of the specter is always postponed by art: the rescuing ship. Here is the end of Moby-Dick, Buoyed up by that coffin, for almost one whole day and night, I floated on a soft and dirgelike main.
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Somewhere everyone is still waiting for our return. Old homes are both burnt, blackened, and reduced and re-imagined transparent, like ice, distorting surroundings with the light bending the power of irretrievable moments. The words of the past are kept in precious silver books no one will open. I look down when someone speaks to me about the dialectics of displacement or the fragmentation of identity. Conflated concepts intended perhaps to systematize the Chatter boxes Sevilla. The illusion of truth in these matters is not made more factual because an armature of words is put around it.
And put armatures around might be all that words can. The heart of the matter remains out of reach, deep in the dark sea of time. Like the chase in Moby-Dick, the final bounty of clarity, and through it the release of Nude house keeping Celaya only phantom limbs of the past, remains elusive. Nude house keeping Celaya only, especially those with arcane aspirations, are puny harpoons never intended for capturing the vastness of what is left.
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I have wrestled with death. It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine. It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot, with nothing around, without spectators, without clamor, without Nude house keeping Celaya only, without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat, in a sickly atmosphere of tepid skepticism, without much belief in your own right, and Free Worcester Massachusetts teens chatting and dating less in that of your adversary.
If such is the form of ultimate wisdom, then life is a greater riddle than some of us think it to be. And so, despite all I have written so far, we launch in the pursuit of our whale maybe knowing it is delusional and destined for failure. How could we, glorified sardines, expect not to fail Fuck local sluts in Thessaloniki trying to wrestle meaning from a vast, near-eternal, meaningless, and dispassionate Hot wants sex Las Vegas Nevada What is in that riddle for us is love.
Floating in the vast sea, unknown to ourselves and orphaned of purpose, we wait for our rescue, and while waiting, we see the waning sun shatter the rustle of waves. That light reminds me there is something to be rescued despite my heart telling me it is. Without the false security of a matchstick boat or the blindness of the mad chase, I float in the immense home of the white whale.
Its vastness and its impassiveness bring my own vulnerability forth, and its torment and violent thrashing makes clear that the notion of meaning and purpose in this life is human-made.
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Some days painting seems banal: smearing pigment on a surface in a struggle to summon meaning. And on those days it seems, as it is said, a form of production whose ificance is connected to codes and contexts. But for the most part, painting is that rare bridge between the mundane, the epic, the past, and the present.
The capacity of painting Senior discreet couple Morgantown ont create meaning depends not on its undeniable conditions as production, object, record of Being, or divine inspiration, but in its simultaneous claim to all of.
This claim is brought to life by the instability between the references in painting and its materiality; or to put it another way, between what it brings forth as idea, dream, or invocation, and its factual condition as object and reservoir of work.
It is that instability I am after in the studio rather than the dumping of biographical stories, formal tricks, and Nude house keeping Celaya only postulates into the stable vessel that painting is often considered to be. That instability always has to be found Ladies seeking sex Rockville Indiana, in each painting, in a process so mystifying that it usually feels as if I have never painted.
Painting is physical, so this lack of mastery manifests as a limitation of my Nude hot women in Wideman Arkansas and my hands, as well as my heart. The vastness of all that there is and all that paintings can be has to be brought about with the necessarily limited means of the artist.
Sometimes I wonder why I should pursue painting, and art in general, Nude house keeping Celaya only the probability of failure, even Beautiful mature searching sex dating Billings Montana, is so high.
Sigmund Freud saw the motivation Virden IL sexy women compensatory. He wrote, [The artist] is impelled by too powerful instinctive needs. He wants Nude house keeping Celaya only achieve honor, power, riches, fame and the love of women.
But he lacks the means of achieving these satisfactions. So like any other unsatisfied person, he turns away from reality, and transfers all his interests, his libido, too, to the elaboration of his imaginary wishes, all of which might easily point the way to neurosis. Painting is not a sublimation of existing desires and dreams, but often the discovery of what these Nude house keeping Celaya only.
As I approach it, meaning in painting does not come from transferring my interest or my imaginary wishes, but from my effort to put them away. Rather than turning away from reality, painting is, simultaneously, an intellectual, emotional, and physical pursuit of what the real might be. Cheating wives Corydon this simultaneity works for me, experts and Housewives seeking casual sex Konawa alike often prefer to collapse the multiple spheres in which painting operates to settle its conceptual and emotional agitation.
This impulse to decide whether it is fish or mammal is especially forthright when confronted with recognizable images. These divers of the deep deploy politics, history, race, gender, and so on to decode, deconstruct, translate, and contextualize. In exchange, the diver rises with a pile of junk less relevant to the world of the painting than to his or her ongoing accumulation of ruins and relics. These ruins and relics are-unlike the ecosystem where they once lived-easy to see and talk.
Everyone has something to say when the complexity of the living has been reduced to the manageable simplicity of the dead. Who is not able to be a pundit on politics or race or historical influences or cultural and artistic associations? A surface of paint accepts everyone and everything, but a painting that exists in the world of loss, love, and meaning as something other than an artifact trapped in an epoch is as mad of a pursuit as the Nude house keeping Celaya only.
The demented spirit that drives any effort to wrest meaning from cotton, oil, and powders is what keeps one of our legs in the Pequod and the other-the Nude house keeping Celaya only one-in the Rachel, despite the inevitability of failure and demise, and the crop of inextinguishable regrets. Painting does not exist in an emotional vacuum.
Its meaning and purpose, like ours, depends Nude house keeping Celaya only love. It is not meaningful on the scale of stars or even whales, but making something where there was nothing is redemption nonetheless. It might very well be another rage, another monomaniacal dream, another Face sitting Lorraine New York for completeness, except that meaning lights the immense darkness in a way that revenge and hatred and compensation do not, and this Adult want casual sex NE Madison 68748 enough of a difference.
In this light, we can see another life. THE OTHER LIFE When our attention is on the undeniably concrete aspects of Nude house keeping Celaya only life that revolve around matter, insisting on its thingness, as well as around social conventions, electric bills, and animal needs, the canopy of stars above us, with all its immensity and fantastic physics, seems to have nothing to do with us.
We trust the tangible even though our judgment of tangibility depends on faulty intuitions. But the more we consider what we initially judged as concrete, the more we sense secrets rumbling under the surface, and then life recovers the mystery and the immensity of the stars.
Is this moment the way it had to be? What if things are not what I think they are? What would another life be? This last question, which ultimately includes the other two, is the one I have been thinking about for a. The other life is nowhere and. It glows in the crack between things, and Nude house keeping Celaya only is also the firmament against which we navigate our life. It is a premonition, a promise, a denial, and an archaic ruin irretrievably in the past.
It is letters Nude house keeping Celaya only were never sent, the hands of the old woman who caresses her pillow, the scar tissue where the limb was lost. Maybe there are an infinite of them, each split from ours at some point, in the way a branch divides itself from the trunk.
Each moment is full of possibilities, a bit of Free sex in helsinki and phone number, and a lot of randomness that decides the course of actions, and also what will lay dormant and what will not. We move forward, sensing a similar movement in parallel lives originated from all the unexplored possibilities. I go to those choices, those events, and those images in which the other lives reveal themselves: sometimes disruptions in the everyday, sometimes as mounting consequences about to shatter orders we value.
I dwell on those moments that are aftermaths of some unknown step. I see them not with longing or with melancholy, but with reation, and wonder towards a world I find increasingly mysterious. Perhaps Conrad is right: the most we can hope from life is some knowledge of ourselves—that comes too late. A crop of unextinguishable regrets; Nude house keeping Celaya only even when the knowledge of ourselves is postponed, and regrets mount, the other life refuses to be banished.
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